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I can distinctly remember toting my pearl pink Little Twin Star lunchbox with matching thermos to school, it was the cutest and perfect lunch box ever. All of those school lunch memories resonated as I attended the 50th anniversary for Sanrio. I was a kid again. Little Twin Star was plastered on the walls and Hello Kitty was just as lovely as I had imagined, yet very quiet! Being there made me ponder on how all those packed lunches got me here today? well figuratively speaking. Today, my lunch is still packed by my mother, in my more conservative hot pink lunchbox. Yet, today the Lunchables don't suffice. I'm stuck in a rut.
This year has been one of an emotional learning process and growth for me. I've had my heart broken, I had a reevaluation of my friendships, my life and most importantly that constant question mark that seems to have made quite a home atop my head. The question of whats next? What do I possibly want to do next? Ahh there it is again, ??? questions, questions and very little answers. I've hit a roadblock, and quite frankly lunchboxes and Hello Kitty can't fix this one. Ladies and Gents, I've eaten a huge dose of confusion and it leaves a sour taste in my mouth. I use to have a definite plan. My diary was filled with lists, ideas and a few teenage angst entries, but those dreams were vivid and that has all shifted now. While I'm looking forward to 2011 and the new possibilities ahead, I owe 2010 a bow and a cheapish applause, cause however difficult the hump has been I have learned so much. My skin has gotten thicker ( hey, hey now I moisturize! But I've grown a backbone! Hallelujah) My heart has gotten tougher and while I haven't lost sight of my dreams I'm still a ball of CONFUSION. I have embraced every learning ingredient that has composed my life lunch of 2010! I'm still treading forward occasionally looking back to summarize what I've learned, but folks I know I'm not the only one, have any of you ever felt stuck? ( By any of you, I direct to my only two followers :) lol ) What have you done to Un-Elmer glue yourself out of it?
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Until next time happy dining everyone!
Ciao,
:) 2011 will be much better! Just watch and see!!
ReplyDeleteIt definitely will be! :)
ReplyDeleteFirst, I must say......why aren't you writing books??? no-for real!
ReplyDeleteSecond, I find that praying along with talking or venting helps me go through moments where one is tired, confused and irritated.
Jose and I also had a very, how can I say....fulfilling, tiring and at times crazy 2010, but like you mentioned, it allowed us to learn and rely on God.
Third, just like you I'm ready for the new year to begin. ohh and we need to get a massage, last time you bailed on us girls.
Thank You! I'll take that compliment any day. I have been praying a lot lately and it has helped me clarify many things.
ReplyDeleteLet's go get a massage soon! I won't bail this time around.